"Friendship can mean different things to different people, so make no assumptions."
With my 26 years and 7 months of existence, I have met a lot of strangers. Some whom I become friends with, some whom I just ignore, some whom I valued much, and a lot more. It just makes me wonder for most of the time, have I made the right emotional investment?
During my teens, I always envy people having 'childhood friends'. Friends who 'know-it-all' about each other. Hmmm... hope I could as well find one of my own. In my search, well, I have found friends of all sorts.
Childhood: Who could be my friend during these years? No other than my cousin, Irish. We used to call each other as 'sweethearts', me being the boyish one. But the 'know-it-all' do not apply. We have different sets of friends in highschool, different school in college, and different career path. But, we still introduce ourselves to others as sweethearts, even to our boyfriends, hahaha.
Nursery: If I remember it right, it was Thea, my seatmate. Hmmm.. that's all that I could remember, oh my poor memory.
Grade School: I have this friend. We've been friends since our 3rd grade I believe. But then, the closeness ceases. The new girl in school become her bestfriend during our 6th grade. (Sigh!) Hence, during my 6th grade, I've gained a new friend. She would always be my constant lunch mate. But, after graduation, we never had communication at all. And I feel awkward to greet any of my friends whenever I see them now.
High School: During this phase of my life, I believe I found my true friends, Men and Susie. They were the friends that stayed, beyond time, beyond distance. Makes me breath with gratitude to the Lord. Our friendship just seem to be so special that even we hadn't have the communication for years, the moment that we saw each other, its as if we just met yesterday. We never fail to share the important details of our lives. We keep each other posted. And that's the real friendship that I've been looking for. :D
College: D' Officials, that's how we call our 'barkada'. Comes from the TV ad of Chippy. For that 5 years of study, we have a lot of ups and downs. But, we were able to make it through. And up to now, D' Officials still exists. We see each other once in a while. We had our hopefully 'yearly' Christmas Party at Marvic's place. Even I don't often come to 'our' get together, they still never forget me, I'm still part of the group. I love you guys.
Work: I've been working for 5 years now. And I've been to 3 companies: PITO, Smart, and Stradcom. In each, I have my buddy. Someone I treated as my bestfriend. Someone who is my constant companion, in having meals, in going home, in going to events, in overtimes, in everything. And, I bet, this is where I invested a lot of emotions, my heart. And, from that investment, I feel, I got negative ROI. (sad) :( It just seems that what the called 'the real world' are full of hypocrites. Nobody would care for you like your friends from school. But of course, 'in every rule there's always an exception'. Bato-bato sa langit, ang tamaan 'wag magalit.
Online: Just a couple of weeks ago. I've registered to this online site. I'm not really 'in' to online friends, before I met Thania and Patrice. They were very friendly, specially Thania. She never forgets to share her life to me even though we hadn't met yet. We just both hope that we could meet one of these days.
As you may see, I've got friends, if not all, 'some' sorts. And from it, I tried to somewhat control my emotional investment. I just don't wanna feel the emotional pain again for someone who I think never or does not know how to treat a 'friend', if they know what that word really means.
Well, nothing to be bitter about. I already 'let go'. I even 'forget'. Just now, I'm more careful on whom I chose to stay and whom I just ignore.
During my teens, I always envy people having 'childhood friends'. Friends who 'know-it-all' about each other. Hmmm... hope I could as well find one of my own. In my search, well, I have found friends of all sorts.
Childhood: Who could be my friend during these years? No other than my cousin, Irish. We used to call each other as 'sweethearts', me being the boyish one. But the 'know-it-all' do not apply. We have different sets of friends in highschool, different school in college, and different career path. But, we still introduce ourselves to others as sweethearts, even to our boyfriends, hahaha.
Nursery: If I remember it right, it was Thea, my seatmate. Hmmm.. that's all that I could remember, oh my poor memory.
Grade School: I have this friend. We've been friends since our 3rd grade I believe. But then, the closeness ceases. The new girl in school become her bestfriend during our 6th grade. (Sigh!) Hence, during my 6th grade, I've gained a new friend. She would always be my constant lunch mate. But, after graduation, we never had communication at all. And I feel awkward to greet any of my friends whenever I see them now.
High School: During this phase of my life, I believe I found my true friends, Men and Susie. They were the friends that stayed, beyond time, beyond distance. Makes me breath with gratitude to the Lord. Our friendship just seem to be so special that even we hadn't have the communication for years, the moment that we saw each other, its as if we just met yesterday. We never fail to share the important details of our lives. We keep each other posted. And that's the real friendship that I've been looking for. :D
College: D' Officials, that's how we call our 'barkada'. Comes from the TV ad of Chippy. For that 5 years of study, we have a lot of ups and downs. But, we were able to make it through. And up to now, D' Officials still exists. We see each other once in a while. We had our hopefully 'yearly' Christmas Party at Marvic's place. Even I don't often come to 'our' get together, they still never forget me, I'm still part of the group. I love you guys.
Work: I've been working for 5 years now. And I've been to 3 companies: PITO, Smart, and Stradcom. In each, I have my buddy. Someone I treated as my bestfriend. Someone who is my constant companion, in having meals, in going home, in going to events, in overtimes, in everything. And, I bet, this is where I invested a lot of emotions, my heart. And, from that investment, I feel, I got negative ROI. (sad) :( It just seems that what the called 'the real world' are full of hypocrites. Nobody would care for you like your friends from school. But of course, 'in every rule there's always an exception'. Bato-bato sa langit, ang tamaan 'wag magalit.
Online: Just a couple of weeks ago. I've registered to this online site. I'm not really 'in' to online friends, before I met Thania and Patrice. They were very friendly, specially Thania. She never forgets to share her life to me even though we hadn't met yet. We just both hope that we could meet one of these days.
As you may see, I've got friends, if not all, 'some' sorts. And from it, I tried to somewhat control my emotional investment. I just don't wanna feel the emotional pain again for someone who I think never or does not know how to treat a 'friend', if they know what that word really means.
Well, nothing to be bitter about. I already 'let go'. I even 'forget'. Just now, I'm more careful on whom I chose to stay and whom I just ignore.
5 comments:
tingin ko, nadala na rin ako sa kaibi-kaibigan na yan. :D
Hi, Madz. Na-touch naman ako dito. :) I really treasure you as my friend din. Our friendship may not be perfect (di tayo laging nagkakasama), but you always stay in my heart. Love you. ;)
@grace, I'm out of that 'fake friendship' :D
@susie, hee hee, welcome. love you too!
sweetie nagyon ko lang to nabasa muah!
hihi.. muah..
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